Thoughts

Never do what's second on the list. Always what's first. But never what's third. Or seventeenth for that matter. Sure, some people like lists, but most people like to do what's on the top of the list. There has to be a reason they put it on the top. It might be because they want to do it, or because they have to do it. Either way, it's their for a reason.
You're probably thinking, "Zark...where is this going?"
To be honest, I really don't know. I procrastinate. I understand that is my problem; not yours. I mean, I could be doing better things then speak to random people who maybe don't know a thing about me or care a bit about what I say. But for some reason, I can't stop talking to this audience. I might not ever know who you are or talk to you ever again if I already do, but maybe someday, I will know.
I hate talking about myself. I guess I'm speaking of all my problems, but in no way am I bitching. This is the main reason I am a listener and not much of a personal speaker. When someone asks me if my fictional writing is personal or ever happened, all I can do is shrug my shoulders and respond with an awkward head gesture.
People have asked me what I want to do with my life. I'm not sure really, but according to people higher than me, [I.E.: Parents and teachers] I need to figure it out soon if I want to succeed in life. They don't want to see me turn out as nothing because one reason. They don't want the guilt of "I helped him become nothing. I did stop him from doing so and so to get there."
I tend to feel like I preach to you all, but enough people don't read this that it won't matter in the end.
I get the same awkward questions like:
"Why are you changing?"
"What's you're inspiration"
To be completely and totally true to you, I don't know the answers you want to these stupid questions. Actually, there are no such things as stupid questions. I say this because if you asked it, you probably wouldn't think it was a stupid question. And honestly, you probably have asked a question like that before.
Now I really lost control of where this is going. Maybe it is a way for me to release what is on my mind. Who will ever know?
People have told me things lately that I can't tell another soul, not because it's bad, but because I choose not to. Now on a more random topic...
As I type this up, I try not to delete what I say because at one point I really wanted to say it.I mean, yeah I will delete it for grammatical errors, but I won't delete what I was going to say. I sort of want people to know some things.
This whole post has lost its entire train of thought, but I feel like I haven't said enough yet. I mean for what's on my mind, this is an ounce subtracted from the entire ton on lying on my head right now. I could have chosen to let everything go by falling asleep, but instead I critique myself to you.
This past year has been a pretty weird year. Things people don't know that will never know stay with me. I figured out who my real friends are. I realized that I haven't changed that much. The people around me have. I found friendship in places I would never expect, and I'm totally happy about it. I have strengthened relationships with my true friends. They probably aren't even reading this, though. I have found new hobbies and followed older ones with more passion.

Enough about me...
Let's [me] talk about everything else...except me. It's election year, but I don't think I care. I won't be able to vote for 4 more years, but I don't mind. Most people are probably concerned about this, but I'm not really sure that it matters. I mean, sure it matters that there is going to be a new leader of the United States. What's so united about them anyways? Anyways, how much longer until there is a President of the World. Or when space exploration hits big, President of the Universe? I mean, with the nonrenewable resources depleting because of our waste of them, there won't be anything left for our future generations. They will have to find new sources and explore like our ancestors did. And where else to explore is there aside from Earth. There is a whole universe.
I was recently told there is some asteroid or comet headed for Earth and has been for years, but it's planned to hit in 2012 and the whole world dies. I don't doubt it but I have other beliefs. I'm not going to share them because that will start stuff with another person who will get into a fight about it.
I have said enough.