I Think When I Can't Sleep

I want to write something that will change the way you see things. I want to inspire you. I want to be able to make you love me with my words. I might be an aspiring author, but I'm not that great with words. I have a million things I want to fill you in on, but I don't know how. The idea is there, but the space is limited. I assume your attention is not focused on me entirely. This is partly inspired by my brother, who I love to death. He is the reason I want to be an author and a photographer. I've been following his footsteps since before I could walk, or at least I hope. I'm going to do what he did. I'm going to tell you a little about me. I'm bi-sexual and I don't care what you think. I like who I like because I feel that the attraction between minds is more important than the attraction between "nature" and physical attributes. I am agnostic meaning that I am not certain if there is a god or not. It's impossible to know for certain. Politics do not affect me, but this only because I'm not even a fucking adult yet, but I am almost entirely liberal. I don't hate republicans, I just typically do not get along with them because of certain disagreements. I try my hardest not to even get on subjects like that with people that aren't on the same level with me. My group of friends mean more to me than anything in the entire world. I love them to death and don't know what I would do without them. They keep my head on straight, they help me deal with things that I could not conquer alone, and they are just always there for me. I can't begin to count on my fingers and toes the number of times Davis, my best fucking friend in the whole world has kept me from doing something so incredibly stupid just by coming to see me in the middle of the night or being there while I vent. I am straight-edge meaning that I abstain from smoking, drinking, and drugs. People ask me why and all I can tell them is because it's a personal choice. I've seen too many of my friends fuck up their lives with these things. I don't need them to have a good time. I like to be able to remember my weekends. I like being able to breath and attempt to sing. I have no problem if that's your way of life, just don't tell me to partake. I have no idea what I'm going to do with my life. I have a few ideas, but most of them have been shattered. I am into body modifications but I hate fake. I do not find implants or face lifts attractive. The body modifications that intrigue me are the ones that consist of piercings, tattoos, or scarification. I'm not entirely sure of all the things I'm going to do to my body when I have money or am of age. Most of the people I'm in high school with won't even be able to recognize me though, that's for certain. My music selection is very scattered. I enjoy listening to death metal, but the majority of my music listening experiences are spent on chill bands that most would refer to as 'stoner music'. I don't give a shit what you call it. My music is MY music.
I'm sure some of you are reading this thinking, "What the fuck, just shut up." I don't care if you don't read. It's my fucking expression. The people I know that are somewhat interested in this are most likely only people I care about. If you did read this, then thank you. This is just me expressing my thoughts when I can't sleep and there's no one around to talk to. The others that might be reading this may be rethinking their relationship with me. Either way, thanks for reading.