Access Granted: To Death

The entire weekend I found myself hanging out with people a lot like me. I felt like I could be myself. I'm not sure how I feel about people anymore. I'm beginning to think I'm two-faced. I look at the people at school and just smile pretending that I care, giving them false hope. I wonder if they even notice. Or maybe, they have gotten so used to this side they see, that they really think it's me. I don't think anyone could ever be more wrong.
By now,you've probably figured out that this is the venting post. It's the only way I can get myself to write, lately. There hasn't been much motivation for Subject to Change or Working Title. Saturday would have had the most impact for Subject to Change. The most unfortunate life-changing event; death. Getting lost and making a thirty-minute trip a two-hour journey. Along the way through life, you can't predict much further than a few seconds. You can plan things, but you don't just wake up one day and predict something in your life. "Good morning world, I'm waking up for the last time. I wonder what I will be thinking as I fly twenty feet through the air before I smash my face on solid concrete." We, as human beings take life for granted. We don't live our lives like we care. I'm not telling you how to live your life, but I will tell you that I live my everyday life like it could be my last. I 'live on the edge' with no regrets. I don't care what think about me. I might care what certain people think, but not you. I could sit here and degrade you. I could berate you, but that takes too much time. I don't care about your self esteem. And if I do, you know. You know who you are. You know how close you are to me, if you really are.
I'm never really sure how I'm going to end things. But for now, I guess I'll leave it on the fact that I will write more later.