Regret

If you have ever felt like you have ruined the greatest thing you had going for you and you don't know what to do anymore, then you know where I'm coming from. Everything you thought was great, turned out to be the greatest thing you ever had. Yet, for some reason you couldn't stop messing everything that was working for that moment in time. You try your hardest to make everything work, but when you do, you just mess everything up that was right. You promise not to fuck up again, but you do. Of course you do. Otherwise it would be simple and everyone knows that simple is impossible. You apologize as much as you can, but that will never heal the wounds from the last time. You try and tell yourself that everything is going to be allright in the end. You talk to everyone else and ask them for their input but all they tell you is to change. Changing for something that isn't you, isn't worth it. I figured this out the hard way. It's easy to be a jealous prick who controls everything. I was never like that, and then I changed. Now, I can't change back. I don't know how, and when I try, I just fuck the rest up. I apologize for my sob story, but I can't stop thinking about how I am ruining the best thing to ever happen to me. I seem to be doing such a great job.